Happy 50th Birthday to Me!! Today is the beginning of the Sexiest Happiest most Successful days of My Life!! 🎊🎂💋 Charysse Sepia Blackman 💗

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unapologeticallyhumanlyfree:

Truth is I can eat what I want & not gain a pound. Most people say….Oh Great!!! Bitch No it aint!!! I hate it!! I Hate it!!! & further more….I HATE IT!!!! I dont feel attractive, beautiful or sexy when I’m thin.

Ive been told that I would gain weight once I’m older. I’ll be 50 Jan,10,2019…..I am older….Where the Fuck is the Fat?!?!??? It aint on my Ass I can tell you that!! I use2 have a cute booty….My Ass just up & left!! I have booty abandonment issues!! 😩 This is so many levels of Not Fair….

Anyway…..I’ve tried protein powders, weight gain powders, all kinds of shakes, drinks, food & blah blah BullShit!!! Not only do I struggle with gaining weight….I struggle with my appetite….AND I lose weight easily…….like…Seriously Universe!!!! Anyway…..This is what happens…….next thing I know…..its after 3 or 4pm & I realize that I’ve eaten nothing. Not because I chose to eat nothing…there was simply no appetite. If I decide to try & eat something…whatever food is on my plate will probably go to waste. Because…..I have zero appetite. Ive gotten to the point where I began to hate my body. Because it’s so difficult & so much work to gain a pound. When I look in the mirror…sometimes I see the body of a girl & I HATE IT!! I’m a Grown Ass Motha Fuck'n Woman & thats what I want to see when I look in the mirror. Most people can just….eat & gain weight. Most people just have an appetite….its so simple for most people. & because mine is a weight gain issue….very rarely do I receive any kind of empathy about it.

Oh…..I’m listening to Duke Ellingtons Mood Indigo album while I write….Passion Flower is playing now…🎼

Anyway…I did a little research and discovered something called Apetamin. Its actually meant for allergies but it makes you super hungry & will make you gain weight. (If U wanna know more about it do the research) Ive tried it off & on since the Summer. Ive started again in this New Year & I will be consistent with it and see what happens. I’m thinking & feeling positive about it. I believe that one day soon….when I look in the mirror…I’ll see a womans body. & I can’t weight for that day. Ooops…I meant…I can’t WAIT for that day. 🙃

Tuxedo Junction is playing now. Duke Ellington - Mood Indigo

~Charysse Sepia Blackman

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